You play with words as every writer does, but in this game, the game of erotica writing, it seems the words have a way of playing with you. You plod on carefully through each keystroke waiting for just that right phrase, twisting its way out of your playful mind, to push your thoughts into fast-forward, but then find yourself blissfully lost in your own creation… as is your body.
You take a deep breath.
You stare into the distance and try to recover your composure, you laugh quietly to yourself… It’s just fantasy, dear; get over yourself. Then something shimmers in the dark corner of the room, your mind fires, and you’re off and running again, your fingers flying lightning-fast over the keys. You find yourself thanking the gods for that tedious college typing course and the pert blonde that sat in front of you squirming incessantly in her seat while sucking on a seemingly unending supply of Tootsie Pops.
You take a deep breath.
You let your thoughts wander. The first hypnotic words that come to mind now slip quickly out the tips of your fingers, never making any obvious sense, but seeming to magically land you on that softly lit path that takes you where the words flow like water. Nothing stops their advance now, pouring gently but unrelentingly over the stones in your mind until the page is nothing but a broken sediment of whiteness beneath the typed words and phrases. You feel content.
You take a deep breath.
…and dive deeper. Something dark shudders in your subconscious, something heavy with reaching arms, a million fingers to slip wetly into your waiting soul. They speak in whispers, whispers that coil around your senses, leaving you with a heightened perception of the darker reaches of the sensual desires that haunt a body… a heart.
You take a deeper breath still.
You tread carefully now. There are places here that smell of panic, and fear gains hold at once. Things one doesn’t want to witness… or say they’ve witnessed. How to tell their stories? How not to tell their stories? You let each finger strike its fated key carefully now and watch as the truth slips willfully out of your control, seemingly chained to the display as the words materialize of their own will. You are no longer the master you thought you were… you are merely another slave.
You sigh… gratefully.
Erotii 
“They speak in whispers, whispers that coil around your senses leaving you with a heightened perception of the darker reaches of the sensual desires that haunt a body… a heart.”
Indeed… There is a haunting that happens. Scary and beautiful.
“There are places here that smell of panic and fear gains hold at once, things one doesn’t want to witness… or say they’ve witnessed. How to tell their stories? How not to tell their stories?”
That’s it! How NOT to tell their stories…
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So glad I’ve hit a nerve with you, Eric.
I’m still of two minds as to which days I prefer… the days they whisper or the days they don’t.
And much gratuitous gratitude for the reblog of my inaugural blog entry!
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It’s an odd life we live, yes?
No problem on the reblog! Keep writing!
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Reblogged this on The Blood, The Glory and the Grace and commented:
This writer does a good job of capturing what it’s like to write horror erotica.
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Thanks for putting me onto this! A stream of consciousness feel. We become our stories.
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Well written. Love the way you put it.
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Thank you so much… will be taking that compliment to heart!
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You described writing erotica very, very well. There are times when I curse my fingers for not being able to type fast enough, with my imagination racing ahead. I often believe that I’m simply a conduit for the story, as it surges to get out. I like going back to re-read and edit those paragraphs that flowed out the easiest, as they usually don’t need much re-writing.
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Thank you! Thrilled to see I’ve writing comrades that share my experience, though knowing the power of words I’m loathe to curse my weary fingers… too often! And, yes! The editing of those free-flowing paragraphs always seem to be a bit magical in their being in need of so very little perfecting; brings a smile every time.
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Word for word, I couldn’t agree more
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